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"J"

She looked so weak, yet so beautiful.  It had been a long day.

The doctors were supposed to put in a port for the Chemo and had punctured her lung instead.  

Sweet, Marathon-runner, Mama of 4, tall & lean, inspiring teacher, funny, confident, Spirit-filled, friend...just some of the words I would use to describe J.

Today she was facing just one of the most trying experiences of her life.  The other happened two weeks prior, two days after Christmas.

My heart sank to see her in such pain...

What was there to do, but just pray?  God had flooded her with His peace.  That was evident.  Her smile told it all.

My heart was dragging...pleading...begging God for answers.  Why J?  Why does she have to go through this?

The promise from the Psalms earlier in the day...

Taken from Psalms 3-5
"But, You are a shield around me, O Lord; You bestow glory on me and lift up my head."
"I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me."
"You have filled my heart with greater joy"
"Surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous; You surround them with your favor as with a shield."
"The Lord is close to the broken- hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."  Psalm 34:18

All promises for J.

This I know to be true...whatever trials may come, God (who is love) is close...hurting, comforting, understanding, sustaining, bringing  joy.
 
Knowing this brings hope.  Hope for J.  Hope for my family.  Hope for a lost world.

In this hope I rest and move forward...without fear. Aphobos.    

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